So it's been a while huh? Well a few things have changed since April but not too much. As of today I am 40 days away from having this baby :D So since we live somewhere so lame and haven't had much making friends in the area I have been beyond stressed with the worry that Ali will be all alone and confused while I'm in the hospital having a baby. Logan leaves soon in less than 30 days actually and the idea of him not being here is just dawning on me. So he decided to fly my mom out here before he leaves just in case the doctor says she can induce me and if not she's here after he leaves. It's things like this that make me love him even more, he didn't have to do anything I would have figured it out but he thought of a plan and created it. I also picked up a bunch of stuff from the yard sale site and finally finished the baby's room. For just $100 I got a bassinett, a box of NB diapers, 2 baby baths, some more clothes, a swing, a boppy and a bouncer. So here it is <3 I love the way it turned out.
(33 weeks)
So as far as that goes that is the plan my mom will be here. Lil came to visit, well to throw us a baby shower which I honestly didn't expect. I'm such a pessimistic person that I don't believe it until I see it. I'm so grateful that she came and she did that for us though, and when she was here it was nice to have family come and act like family. She cooked almost every meal while she was here and she helped me get little things done around the house but for the most part she did everything for us. It was nice to have my big sister around taking care of me.
So somewhere between planning a baby shower and actually having the baby shower I must have really gotten on Lindsay's nerves but she decided to no longer be friends with me. This doesn't bother me too much it's just the way she "ended" things. I feel like I'm in this screwed up relationship that finally ended but not really sure why? I was told that she was moving forward and that she always felt as though our friendship was based off of our husbands....really? I remember meeting her through another friend and hanging out with her more than our husbands hanging out given their schedules and the fact that they have jobs. We didn't, it seems as though since Christmas everything has been a constant fight with her like walking on egg shells. She had told me before that I wasn't a very good friend for the way I hadn't been there for her while her husband was gone, all the while I was working and in my early months of pregnancy, but I guess she's right I suck. I don't feel like I'm at fault for anything that happened because I have always been honest with her, which brings me to this if I were to ever talk to her again this is what I would say : " you have made it perfectly clear that you no longer want to be friends, so please don't ask about me or feel obligated to say hi when we bump into each other." I think the main reason why I wanted to email her at first was to simply tell her this but I don't think its anything that needs to be said to stir anymore drama. I just couldn't believe she went through with the shower and everything and acted as though everything was OK. Why wouldn't you just say something????
On a whole other note we signed Alison up for t-ball this season and she seems to really be into it. Logan says that most kids her age don't have as much interest in taking all the steps to make sure they are standing right but every time she lines up just like he taught her. it's the cutest thing to see them bonding, well they're always bonding but for her to take interest in the things he likes is pretty cool. She will be starting school in August and thinking of this is just crazy, I can't believe that she's this old already. We have been having a little bit of trouble with her attitude not to mention the fact that she chooses to ignore me. This is the biggest problem lately I can only hope that she doesn't have this same attitude when she is in school.
