Haha don't you wish! So since I vamped up my blog for all you loyal stalkers of mine I decided what better way to show it off than to actually post something...duh! So yesterday was kind of a bad day for me I was getting all sensitive about little things that Ali says. Like how she would rather go hang out with Lindsay than me because she straightens her hair better than I do, and how Lindsay doesn't mess up when she paints her nails. Well I got upset because it always feels as though I come second to Ali. I know she's 4 what does she know right? Well when her dads around she only goes to him and when its just us she bugs me to either call Logan on the phone skype with him or go to Lindsay's. I know she's just bored of being home with me right now because she got into the routine of things that we had going. Like her going to daycare every morning as I rushed her to get ready because I was running late.
Anywho I'm trying to bond with her but it seems like nothing I ever do is "cool" enough. Never thought I would have to feel this way...well not yet at least I figured the whole " mom isn't cool " stage would come when she either had a sibling to go against me or she was a teenager going against me. It just seems like me and Ali don't get a long very well. Logan says I argue with her, maybe I do but I don't know how to deal with a 4 year old ...duh!
On another note I feel like I'm losing my marbles, not only was I freaking out over this stuff yesterday I'm still crying about it today, like why does it seem like all the little things bother me? I know I'm stressed because Logan isn't here but GEEZE I lasted four months with him gone last year. I think it might just be that I got a little comfortable with him being around all the time & so did she obviously. So it is 230am and I am blogging because I hate sleeping alone. I really should get to sleep because Ali is going to wake up and want breakfast and well I'm gonna wanna hide under the blankets like I have been for the past 3 days. We've been waking up at almost noon. Its getting out of hand I need to wake up, clean my house, and get the things I wanted to get done before this man of mine comes back home. I'm no suzy fucking home maker but this house is starting to look like hot mess. : )
Just another thought to throw out there that dog of mine is doing fine, she's getting big and eating pretty much everything in my back yard. Sticks, twigs, trees, Logan's brushes for his grill, charcoal,leaves. You name it she was probably eating it! Snooki on the other hand is doing good too, there was a little trauma that happened but all is well, I'm just glad she survived. Ali, Hayden & Kaylee were trying to play with the bird this past weekend and it was our fault cuz they were unsupervised....we were busy gettin' our drank on! So the kids wouldn't be to blame had the bird gotten hurt. But she didn't so all is good in the hood. We just need to remember to lock the bird away if the kids are going to play : )
I had a blast this weekend I'm sorry to those who had to hear me & Logan not shut up on karaoke but we so have to do it again sometime soon ...maybe when Logan gets back : ) As for me well I told you most of what was going on and well to add to my crappy phones list is the Droid! I should've kept my mouth shut and waited til I could upgrade. i would have been able to come August but now I have to wait a whole freaking year till next February. Oh and as for school I'm doing pretty good there too, I actually get excited about having to do my school work now because I don't feel rushed to get to sleep because I ahve to do a stupid crappy job the next day. I also don't have to lock myself in a room because Ali is pretty good about leaving me alone when I tell her I'm doing homework. Except she expects me to get in the car and go to an actual school "like Hayden" she says, I try to explain that it's all online but....it kinda goes in one ear and right out the other faster than I actually finish explaining it. I guess I just always have to remember no matter what, Ali has to like me because I'm gonna be here for a long time.
Well until next time you loyal stalkers you I'm gonna go to bed now and see how much sleeo I can get before Chones wakes me up for food.
Goodnight : D
hey debs cheer up...Ali is 4, she's a bright little one and she one thing she does know is that she is numero uno to both you and Logan. Always remember she is lucky to be raised by the two of you...maybe when she's a teen she's going to turn against Logan who knows. As for now just love her and let her know that even if your not "cool" to her (which I'm sure she is not aware of).Love ya sis....<3 KRI
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