Insomnia

So counting sheep hasn't been working! Since Logan has been gone I have gotten less and less sleep almost everyday. The first night he was gone it was like I didn't sleep at all and every other night after that was just a few hours at a time. It seems like I'm laying in bed and I should be asleep but I just can't stop thinking. Thinking about everything, my greatest blogs come at night when I should be sleeping so instead of trying to go to sleep I'm trying to fins the words in my head that go together the best for my blog, only thing is I forget everything I racked my brain for. And for what? Nothing. A blog, a budget, an idea that sounds good at the time, had I gotten any sleep.

 So the past couple of days have been rough for me ( wah wah ...I know) I think Alison is acting out because Logan's gone but then I think and its like " maybe it has nothing to do with him" She talks to him over the computer almost everyday there has been like 2 days that she didn't see him. When he calls he doesn't just say hey he stays online with her and sees her acting crazy. So since we had a bad day Thursday, I decided maybe it was me and she was picking up on my stress, so we woke up got dolled up and decided to go into town since my phone wasn't working and all, we went out to the mall after the refurbished phone was delivered to me, that phone was still having problems (crazy droid). I made a deal with her that I would buy her some ice cream if she could behave while I looked at some clothes, I had some cash on me so we went into the children's place, she picked out a few things and I let her pay for it. She then wanted to get some new earrings so we checked out Claire's to see what they had. We had only spent at the most three hours away from the house, when we got back Nala was gone. I went outside to mow the lawn and the dog wasn't there. My first thoughts were that some dirt bag stole her, this wouldn't be the first time this happened to me, so while Logan was skyping with Ali I posted an announcement on the yard sale site to announce that our dog was gone. I tried not to really worry about it because it was late in the evening on a Friday. I didn't think that anything would be open that late. I tried to cheat that night and drink a beer to make me sleepy only it didn't make me sleepy I slept for about four hours and then I was wide awake making French toast for breakfast. 

MmMmMmmmmmm... I <3 French Toast it's my fave : ) 

Saturday morning while I'm making breakfast I call the LE desk and let them know my dog went missing they say she got turned in but was already transported downtown, guess I know what I'm doing than. When I got back I wanted to hang out with Lindsay because I hadn't seen her in a few days because I didn't want to be such a Debbie Downer around her doing nothing but complaining about Ali. I know that's what I'm doing now but its not the same. We were going to rent scary movies,drink what drinks we had left over from last weekend and the kids would be at her house with Joseph. We instead went to dinner and decided we were going out to Hip Hop night with a friend of mine. I can honestly say even though it was fun going out I would have rather stayed in. After all the drinks and the crowded place, the so-so music going, I just wasn't there mentally. Logan is right you go there when you're looking for something ..... anything. And we def. were not. 

So to end our Saturday it was 5 in the morning and I was feeling completely guilty because Ali was going to wake up & I didn't want Joseph to feel like he was stuck with three crazy kids two days in a row. 

So blah blah blah right? "Debbie tell us something interesting already!" Well I can't really explain the things we laughed about because you had to be there. they're never that funny when re-told. But I can tell you that I will be getting another refurbished phone on Tuesday. They have to keep sending me this one because to them " I haven't had enough problems with it" So I'm just gonna not use it even when it gets here and just keep that line suspended.We had a lazy day, nothing but sitting around watching movies and well I did homework of course. I got a really sweet comment from my mom about my picture, made me smile : ) I miss home and I miss my family but soon enough we'll be able to go back there and visit there's just no telling when right now. I hope everyone has a good Memorial day, I'm not sure what me and Ali will be getting into...but I'm sure I'll bore you with it. Goodnight & let's hope I get some sleep : /